It’s taken a lot of courage and mental strength to be able to share this with everyone, but this is one of the first things that I wrote back in 2017. This is what fueled the fire to get where all of this is today. It’s insanely personal, but at the same time, not even about me. This is my frustration with mental illness and what it does to people. I feel for all of you when I write and the love in my heart is the biggest factor, but you can’t have love if you don’t address the bad stuff, too. This was writen for all of you…
Addressing The Demons
Anxiety is a bitch
Anxiety, F&%K YOU
Bipolar personality, I don’t want to talk to you
Depression is like the longest argument that doesn’t end and I don’t have time for you.
Why is this disease so mean
I’ve done everything I can do
Far and in between
Why does this pain shed no blood
Why does this agony feel as if I’m drowning in a flood
I can’t breathe; I’m uncomfortable in my own skin
Is there only one way out of this
Is it to give you one more sin
Fine then
What’s next
Am I going to let my demons win
F&%K YOU, I despise you for what you want me to do
I am better than this disease
I don’t have to fall to my knees
And make the demons ever so pleased
I am stronger than this
Give me everything you have
I will handle it with ease
And know this…
I will fight
Fight for my family
Fight for my right
Fight for my blood
Fight for my little girl
Fight for my wife, who saved my life
You see that
I won, I beat you
I know you don’t care
But I don’t give a f&%k about you
Sincerely, with Care!
B
