"You Said You'd Stay Forever,
But All You Left Me With Is Pain.."
A Poem by S.J.L
You Said You'd Stay.
You Said You'd Stay Forever This Time
No Matter The Hills nor Valleys
Nor Even This Pain I've Kept Screaming Inside.
Only You Hold The Key Neona, The Key To My Heart..
One Door..
Just One.
From Birth to my 23 Years in Earthly Age
Through All the Walls I Had Built like a Pointless and Ever Infinite Maze.
All of the Broken and Shattered Memories, From The Gang Violence to the Drugs I'd Move State to State
From My Hardest Falls to my Pain Engraved Flaws
From The Decade of Abuse brought Upon those 52 Foster Homes that Practically Summed Up My Youth.
You Said You'd Stay This Time
We Spoke Upon Forever as if it Were Meant To Be..
We Put Teardrops, Old Wounds, and Scars Up High in an Empty Mason Jar
I Put You First..
For Years I Knew You had Earned It
But most of all Neona You had Seemed The Only One Fit and Deserving
From May 26th, Til the Last Time I Saw Your Precious Ocean Eyes and Your Perfect Smile on June 28th 2 days After Your Birthday..
I Remember Those Final Moments..
The Timeless Seconds of Us Both Lost As If Within a Trance Within Each other's Loving Gaze..
Now I Must Admit, Those 30ish days or so Were Easily The Only Days in the 23 years I've spent
To Where I Truly Felt Alive,
The Only Days I Felt Love..
Those Were The Only Days Where I Actually Felt Happiness in my Life...
3 years we have always been in Love..
So Why Just Walk Away n Lose All Faith?..
Why Do I Feel Like Your Okay n You'll always be Okay
But all I feel is Tossed n Stabbed n Thrown Away?..
You Said You'd Stay Forever,
But All You Left Me With Is Pain..
- S.J.L. aka Sam I Am
August 7th, 2019
