I’ve been staring at my screen for about an hour now trying to figure out what I want to say. Even though I found the courage to start writing, I don’t know where this will go…
I lost a friend Monday night. Jacksonville, FL lost a friend Monday night. A ton of people lost a friend Monday night and there isn’t one correct way to address this other than why does this keep happening to so many people in my life?? She was an amazing person from head to toe, amazing mother and a beautiful person inside and out. The world is at a loss without her and I hope she has found peace in the world we all want to be in eventually, but God has a plan for everyone and we’re not privy to that.
I’m writing this blog in her honor because she deserves a fair chance to tell her story and I don’t even know it. I’ve known Nicole since 2003 and the past 10 years my interactions were few and far between, but that doesn’t change the dynamic of a friendship and my feelings haven’t changed and all the random chats we had between then and now were the exact same as day one. True friends can pick up right where they left off at any point and time. It hurts my heart tremendously that in a time she needed someone the most, no one was there. What I would give or anyone who loves her would do to be there for that moment, feels what I’m feeling…
I don’t understand the phases of life that well. We get out of High School and College comes, then that runs it’s course and friends start getting married! The babies come next and so on… Why is this such a major part of our generation?! Everyone is dying all around us. Every year friends and I talk about getting out of 17, 18 or whatever year because it was the worst ever. This can’t be a pattern for our children to face and have to deal with. We need to find change and help people!!!! When you see something, do something! If you love someone that you also worry about, do something, even if it’s the hardest decision you’ve ever had to make, just think of the end result. Please know this isn’t directed at anyone, but I just want to spread this message to help others…
I still don’t know what I’m trying to say here because my mind is all over the place. Everyone deals with things like this in different ways, but when you lose someone it can take you for a weird ride.
My condolences to her family, children, friends, family friends, my family and anyone who misses her. Please, GOD, be at peace.
If any of my Jax family is reading this, let’s make this happen for her. Donate at her gofundme page here
Thank you for being a part of my life, Red… <3
B
